The Great Fear
The Great Fear starts in Prudhoe Bay Alaska, is what we are told. It is found in the Northern Territories of Canada, deep in the woods of Oregon, in the Sierra Nevada mountains of California, hiding in the low brush of the plains, in the alleys of Los Angeles, at the border in Mexico and in the jungles of South America. It hunts you from the dim corners of your waking mind and like a vampire bat drains your will and constitution before you are even aware of it.
In the North, the Great Fear takes the form of the grizzly bear. The bike tourists that we met coming down from Alaska were all duly warned that to ride without a shotgun was madness. They would be bear food and nothing would be left of them except for a few Shimano components licked clean.
None of them saw grizzlies. Some of them saw black bears. All of them survived.
As you travel south, the Great Fear changes suits and transforms into snakes that hide for you sharpening their fangs in the bushes or mountain lions waiting anxiously on some rock outcropping over the road. As you reach civilization, the Great Fear becomes man. He’s going to run you off the road. He’s waiting for you in dark alleys. He’s going to poison your dinner. He’s going to abduct you and take you for ransom.
The Great Fear is everywhere and everything and nothing all at once.
Nils and Caroline were a german couple that was touring from Alaska to Argentina, they were very familiar with the Great Fear and its vociferous choir. Their friends would warn them of bears in Alaska, of logging trucks in Oregon. When we met them in Oregon they laughed most of it off as did the other tourists we met. As they approached the US/Mexico border, the chatter changed from bears to drug lords, ransoms and kidnappings. “There is always something to be afraid of,” they said. “Always.”
It’s never as bad as you think it’s going to be – this is a lesson we’ve learned.
One morning at camp, there were six of us huddled around an Adventure Cycling map on the picnic table. There was a very ominous road we were going to be riding called Seven Devils road. People were talking about it the night before, they were going to bed early and going to push off at first light. Seven Devils. Seven Devils. The Great Fear hung in the air. When it finally came to ride it, we all braced for the worst, but in the end Seven Devils was one of the most pleasant roads we’ve ridden. There was a sharp spike in the beginning, but once we got to the ridge line it was a series of gentle climbs in a little traveled road.
Fear is the mind-killer.
Having ridden 2500 miles and lived for four months without a permanent address, we are gaining perspective on the Great Fear.
Yes there are dangers. Yes, terrible and freakish things do happen to people, but that is the exception and not the rule. For us, we’ve been met with more generosity and kindness than hostility. We’ve had maybe two verbal exchanges with drivers throughout the entire west coast. We are not naive. We rely on good sense and instinct.
The Great Fear is what stops people in their tracks. It is what turns dreams into dust.
For me, I have what I will call, for lack of a better term, My Greater Fear. It is that I will live a perfectly unexceptional existence with this exceptional chance I have been given. My Greater Fear is that I will rot beneath a matrix of fluorescent lights staring at the carpeted walls of a cubicle, or that I will wake knowing exactly what I will be doing every minute of every day for the rest of my waking life, or that I will wait until I am old and enfeebled to give myself permission to live.
In the face of My Greater Fear, which I think is far more likely, I choose to jump and embrace the Great Fear.
We are in Long Beach and we are preparing ourselves for the next leg of our journey. It almost feels like we are starting over again. The first four months has been our training, our long shakedown ride for the rest of the trip. The fears are already starting to emerge. Will we freeze on the side of the road? Be swept away by a tornado? Washed away by a hurricane? Will the Natural Lite drinking drivers of the South finally do us in?
There is always something to be afraid of. Always.
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EXCELLENT post! This is one of my most difficult struggles; within everyday life and when touring. It’s a constant war of the mind which unfortunately sometimes spills over into the direction of a tour. When I was younger, it wouldn’t have been something I was as worried about as much but the older I get the harder it is to shake fears. It’s become more visceral, seeping into this more porous brain and body.
Fabulous post! You nailed it exactly.
awesome ideas! and so true.
“Fear is the mind-killer”
Great words from a great author.
Love the blog! Keep pedaling.
guys – what a great post. so true, so true!
peace 🙂
Wonderful post. Important reading for any bike tourist. Love your blog. Keep up the good work.
Anne Frank:
The best remedy for those who are afraid, lonely or unhappy is to go outside, somewhere where they can be quiet, alone with the heavens, nature and God. Because only then does one feel that all is as it should be and that God wishes to see people happy, amidst the simple beauty of nature.
People still drink Natural Lite?
“It’s never as bad as you think it’s going to be”
This is the key. As I go about the much less adventurous business of bicycle commuting in New Jersey, I’m reminded of this fact with every “first”: first ride in traffic, first rain storm, first below freezing ride, first dark ride. Reminding myself of that fact keeps me going forward instead of falling back to the heated comfort of my car.
It was a cold ride today. I was overdressed. Thanks for the reminder.
Thanks so much for this post.
You are on to something incredibly important here. As a parent who bike commutes with her kids, we hear about the Great Fear a lot from other families, some of whom clearly disapprove of our transportation choices. I won’t, however, let this Great Fear rob my boys from learning that one can get around pretty darn well by bike, that one can interact with his community well on two-wheels on ways we didn’t on four, or the joy and fun of biking in general. I love my boys would never put them intentionally in danger. I do wonder though how, as a society, we’ve allowed The Great Fear to lead to something that some refer to as ‘overparenting’…
TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
DUNE!!!
nice dune reference! And also amazing blog and art, I ride a lot of bikes and have been getting into making headbadges and the like for them and your site has been a great inspiration.
Some day I hope to overcome my fear and try something as amazing as what you are doing.
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Damn, you’re living how I used to live. I am so jealous.
Every day for me … it’s like I can plot it out into eternity and it’s the same thing until I’m too weak or too sick to keep it up.
I feel very sad.
Russ,
You are so right. Fear is the great killer of dreams.
I have lived on both sides of the great fear. Having lived on the safe side for a while, I long to cross back over. To be free and alive like the young guy I was who traveled around playing guitar and loving every moment of it. No boundaries.
We are taught to obey this amorphous Demon, made stronger by our imaginations. It keeps us up at night and in our comfort zones for a lifetime.
And then, we wake up and realize that we can handle the great fear by simply being awake, aware and in the moment.
Thank you for sharing your thoughts and your adventures.
Paul
What an awesome post, thanks for sharing! I think more people need to hear this kind of stuff.
Actually, what I think more people need to hear about is all of the (much more common) generosity and kindness stories that happen. Maybe those with too much fear would be more apt to venture outside of their comfort zone.
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My husband & I took 3 of our children to Israel after a particular long siege of bus bombings years ago. Being there for 6 weeks, we daily rode the buses. (not tourist buses).
Before stepping out into the world unknown, we were warned over and over of the dangers of whisking our children to such a dangerous area.
Had we stayed home, we would have missed the people, the buses, the walking centuries old steps, living side by side two cultures, the corn pizza and fruits and vegetables, the bagels, the bomb scares, the homesickness, and years and years of memories shared by our family.
Our experiences shaped our future. It taught us to live with less, to dare to adventure more, to take chances even if danger might possibly strike. Life does not hold promises. I am grateful beyond words that we took those chances.
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Hey! Great article, Tom and I talked about the same subject a lot on the road, I suppose thats why guys like us are on the road because we don´t believe all the shit people talk about. So many people told me not to wild camp in Mexico as it wasn´t as safe as the US. One guy was cetain I´d get stabbed, they just stab anyone! no motive required! Obviously no one ever bothered me (and no one ever has during the hundreds of times I´ve stealth camped) but i still get the fear when camping by myself by the road. What I try to remember is that if someone sees me in the desert with a headtorch on he´s probably going to be pretty scared of me!… so maybe the fear works in our advantage sometimes!
My version of this is
“Life’s biggest regret won’t be something you did…
It will something you wish you’d done, but didn’t.”
Keep going for it.
Thanks for the reminder, Russ. Twice I’ve let The Great Fear talk me out of a bike tour in the Middle East (it takes the form of religious fanatics with an irrational hatred for whites/Jews/Americans, all of which I am), maybe now I’ll finally go for it and re-read Dune along the way. The mafia didn’t get me in Italy, Los Angeles drivers still haven’t done me in after 7 years of almost daily biking downtown, I’ve survived all kinds of natural threats that every biker has to face, and I haven’t done nearly enough living for quite a while now. Thanks again for the inspiration.
Wow. This is a profoundly powerful post. The part starting with “For me, I have what I will call, for lack of a better term, My Greater Fear. It is that I will live a perfectly unexceptional existence” gave me goosebumps. This is me! This what I’m fearing most! And I woke up to it a tad late so I’ll have to scramble to do something about this. Thanks for this mind expanding post. Adam
Hi ive been following your travels for a while and when i read this i just had to share it. Thank You for posting this. Ive found that starting my journey i had no fears it become others fears that have affected me. Do you find this also affects you to at times? Not your own fears but what others fear will happen to u?
I think the media in our country inflates the Great Fear and makes it seem so ominous we must be afraid of everything and everyone. If they would tell the stories of all the good (like you are), perhaps more people would get out there and experience life- not fear it.
The great fear turns dreams to dust- so sad, but so true.
Great post, Russ. I’m thoroughly enjoying your adventure (and maybe one day will venture out on my own)!
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I’m almost 60 re3ady to retire, I,m going thru the darien gap, I’ve heard the great fear about it, you are inspiring and be willing to die in the intent.
thank you: good people
Fantastic – thanks – are you all coming through Memphis? Saw you were just in my last hometown of Jackson.
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