Traveling Without Moving
Why is it the case that it is infinitely easier to find deep, profound and life changing meaning when you’re traveling? There is something about being on a train, watching the scenery unfold itself like a continuous roll of film, or peering down at all the sad earnest little cities from 30,000 feet in the air, or biking with all your worldly possessions in tow that predisposes us to finally answer those nagging Questions of the Ages.
What is fascinating is that we often find our answers. What is tragic is that we usually forget them.
I have always been befuddled by this pheonmenon of how we can become so wise when traveling and revert back to our selfish and small selves in a matter of days upon returning. It seems like a few hours of looking at Excel spreadsheets is enough to reduce Confucious to confusion.
I’m writing this while sitting on a train so I don’t forget this time. You know, like Letters from Algernon, but to myself.
When you are moving from place to place, never sleeping in the same bed twice, never seeing the same people for more than a few days, the world begins to feel illusory and transparent. Life is exposed as a peculiar series of situations that evolve and resolve themselves like a four panel comic strip, with our consciousness as the thin newsprint that holds it all together. Travel shakes your world view, it broadens your perspective and lets you step outside yourself so you can peer inside yourself.
Movement and the transitory nature of travel primes our brains. We perceive that we are on an adventure, so we think like adventurers. We open ourselves up to serendpity and chance, and Chance finds us. This is, of course, in direct conflict with when we are at “home.” At home, our minds are a little less free and are a little more concerned with fortification than exploration. The steady cadence of the day, the commute, the morning meetings, the allotted lunch hour and afternoon conferences marshall our thinking into an inexorable march to the weekend, where we are granted 48 hours leave before taking up our stations again on Monday morning.
One notable moment for me on this trip was climbing up into the bowl of the Chisos mountains in Far West Texas. It was steep and brutal in such a way that I can only describe it as trying to ride a bicycle with an angry 300lb gorilla on your back, periodically punching you in the gut and face. Having survived it, only one word can describe those excruciating hours of climbing – bliss.
When we reached the rim of the mountains and peered down into its caldron, I was hit with something like ecstasy. The gorilla disappeared (the bruises were still there) and all the heaviness and unbearable fatigue fell from my body like fractured stalagtites. I felt one with myself. All the conflicting internal voices had stopped bickering and were singing in beautiful unison. Yes. This is what it means to be alive. I was in the middle of the Great Mobile, the point of balance from which all things diverged, but from where all things are delicately connected. I had a divine flash and knew that everything was going to be ok. All the troubles and the worries I had or will have will work themselves out in due course. I had nothing to worry, because in this world-view prince and pauper were the same, joy and suffering were the same. My only responsibility was to live and let it all graciously unfold. I was having what psychologists refer to as a “peak experience.” I had found inner harmony.
Amazing what a steep climb will do to the senses.
So what happens exactly? On this trip we have found that the human psyche is suprisingly adaptable. After a few months into our travels, we had been transformed from homebodies to steely-eyed travelers, who felt comfortable with and even thrived on a healthy amount of daily uncertainty. Where are we going? We’ll ride to where it’s interesting. What are we going to eat? We have a stove, we can find something to cook. Where are we going to sleep? We’ve got a tent, what does it matter. What had begun as questions that used to fundamentally terrify us had turned into trifling details that we didn’t let get in the way of Adventure. When you’re traveling, your thinking adapts and becomes fluid and agile, capable of mental Jujitsu.
Conversely, the mind is also infinitely adaptable in the opposite direction. As free as your thoughts become when traveling, they can be easily trapped again in their old habits. The great lessons you learned on those mountain tops, that you thought for sure were indelibly etched into your being like commandments on stone, more resemble epehmeral sand mandalas. It doesn’t take long. A few days for some, a few hours for others. Your thoughts that once roamed unfettered find themselves penned in. You look up and the blue spotless sky is replaced with a flourescent light buzzing above – the strange soundtrack to your life.
So what is there to be done?
The most alluring option would be to perpetually travel. However, the biggest deceit of the travel industry is that happiness can only be found abroad on white sandy beaches, where drinks come adorned with miniature parasols and meaning rains from the skies. While traveling does afford us space to be contemplative, it does not have a monopoly on Zen. As Pirsig writes in Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance, “The only Zen you find on tops of mountains is the Zen you bring there.” The search for meaning is an inner exploration. Being away from the familiar facilitates the process, but you are just as likely fo find it on top of Mount Kilamanjaro as you are in between the couch cushions. One of the most peaceful souls we’ve encountered on this trip found his inner harmony while sweeping the floors of his home. He used a gnarled handmade broom that was cut from a serpentine tree branch. The textures were rough and exposed and, as he swept, all the vibrations from the bristles were telegraphed straight to his hand. The sublime in the simple. The tactile process brought him peace. He had turned a mundane task into mindful meditation.
As I write this, we’re sitting on a train on our way to Portland, OR. We’ve just passed Mynot (pronounced like “why not?”), North Dakota. The landscape outside is predominantly brown. Brown trees on brown hills with intermitant patches of pure white snow. By this time tomorrow we should be in Portland, where we will live and work for a few months before we can set off again.
We are still filled with the momentum of our journey. Full of life. Joyous. We can look at things with the calm that you develop when things around you have been in constant flux for 15 months. Inner harmony. We are excited to be living in Portland, but we have challenges ahead of us. We have to work and be dutifiul about saving so we can set off again in the Spring. In our minds we are still travelers, even though we aren’t moving. The challenge is to keep and guard this perspective, even though it will be buffeted from all sides. When the time comes to strike out again, our bikes will be already packed and our hearts would have long ago said “Yes!”
The Traveler’s Creed
The challenge is to remember what the world looks like with your traveler’s eyes; to see things as if you were passing by on some far flung adventure, even though you are at home.
These are the insights that I will try to remember.
The traveler is expectant and open and sees the beauty in things when others do not. A traveler is good natured to strangers, because he understands our fundamental interdependence with each other. The traveler operates in deep karmic debt and repays what he can when he can, joyfully. The traveler eats heartily, because he understands each meal is a gift. The traveler knows that it is the people, and not always the places, that he will remember long after he has stopped moving. The traveler believes in the fundamental kindness of strangers and walks through crowds with a smile. The traveler knows that enough is plenty and the quest for perfection leads to suffering. The traveler knows that no person is better than anyone else, because he has dined and conversed with kings and knaves and has found joy and sadness in both. The traveler relishes in the idea that all he needs to live can fit in a duffle slung over his shoulder. The traveler talks to every person excitedly because he is fascinated in everyone’s unique narrative. The traveler knows that both moments of exhaulted pleasure and suffering will pass in due course and he is richer for both. The traveler knows he will never be in the same place with the same mind ever again. The traveler sees each day as ripe with possibility and chance encounters. The traveler knows that it is because his journey must one day end, that it has meaning. The traveler’s curiosity trumps his fear. The traveler is thankful for every day he is on the road.
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Beautiful post…thanks.
Your thoughts are incredibly insightful. Your photos are beautiful, esp. in black and white.
Keep riding and writing.
Universal reality arising from a unique individual experience; yet everyone desires that. What are the universal conditions, requirements. Why must it be persuaded; why lost? A basic theme repeated. From this fine reflective essay if Russ, I get an increased insight and appreciation for the practical value of the procedure of transcending: to come completely out of boundaries of life – to have natural regular travel from boundaries to complete unboundedness then back and back and … Maybe, I speculate, that fulfills the basic mechanism of travel.
Thank you for putting into words how I have felt regarding all of my life’s travels, by bike and otherwise. I will be saving this post and will refer to it often. Thank you.
Most essays written while traveling reflect personal feelings and emotions in their nascent form. Thank you for letting us be a part of it.
I have found peace in sweeping my floors, albeit with a plastic broom left behind by an old roommate. I am glad other people have discovered it too.
Wonderful. Thank you.
I rejoice in your insight and mindfulness. Thanks with my heart for sharing this and much other things. You can keep still for a time and still see and experiences the basic truths that you encountered while traveling; you need a different mindset, a different focus. I do wish for you to maintain and savor it while back in OR 🙂
Fantastic Post. Thanks for sharing your insights and wisdom. Love your blog and have been following since the beginning.
Hope to see you out on the road sometime.
Jim
Funny how going begets one kind of creativity, yet stopping begets its own. Beautiful and meaningful post, Pirsig is right yet again, the zen at the mountain is the zen you bring with you. The zen on bike is the zen you bring with you and alas. . .the zen on the train is the zen you bring with you…
I love the idea of keeping the mindset of the traveler, even when you’re at home. When I’m on the road, I feel like a more open, creative and adventurous version of myself. You’ve inspired me to try to apply that mindset to my non-traveling life. I hope you do the same when you settle down for a while in Portland. Good luck!
Very Nice… as always, we journey to find ourselves. Ideally, smiling at the discovery.
That was an absolutely beautiful post. Thank you for sharing.
Russ, A great reminder to stay, even in spirit, always a traveler….and maybe a reminder that even in a daily commute you can discover new adventures and continue to grow inner peace and reflextion! Thanks for including all of us on your and Laura’s adventures! Enjoy the Winter in Portland!
Paul
Beautiful.
Great post. I hope the domesticate months do not slow your blogging. I hope to see a post about traveling cross country on Amtrak.
Beautiful post.
Thank you for documenting your travels. Your posts have made for great reading.
All the best in this next phase of your life.
Another reflective and well-written post Russ. Please don’t stop sharing/writing. 🙂
This is one of the best personal essays that I’ve ever read. Thank you for sharing your insights.
You two are truly sharing a gift with us, to include us along this journey of yours, through the world and into your hearts.
Hope our paths cross again some day.
With love,
Adam
ps-touched by the sweeping poetry
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I cut the last paragraph you wrote above, and pasted into a word document, and printed it… absolutely beautiful!
It captures so much that I believe, but never have organized my thoughts they way you did. Thank you!
I may not have ever been on a bike tour, but I sure know when I feel moved by something. Your writing is inspiring. Thank you.
Stumbled upon your blog a few days ago and have just finished reading from start to finish. As with any good read, I’m a bit sad that I’ve “finished” or in this case caught up. Please keep it coming, I’m sure your settling back in to a “normal” life will be as interesting as your travels. Ive watched and really enjoyed as your writing styles have matured, as well as your abilities as bicycle tourists. Now I know why your bags are so big, you bring so much zen for all of us to share…..
Be well, stay in touch
What a beautiful post. I’ve fallen in love with your words. I’ll definitely save this one to read whenever I’m feeling down during my travels. Thank you for this gift.
Great writing. The journey is a state of mind and a way of seeing the world. You can keep this perspective long after the trip has ended.
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I found this on Thanksgiving day and I’m adding it to my list of things I’m thankful for. It’s one of the most profound things I’ve ever read. Thank you for sharing this with us.
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Nicely said. You’ve expanded on a favorite traveling quote – “A traveler sees what he sees. A tourist sees what he’s come to see.” Thanks for writing this article.
Yes, Beautiful…
And so saying, I’m concerned…
How can you go anywhere without preparation? How do you know you can get income? It’s been 10 years now since my last full-time job, staying in my area, and I have yet to find the knack to regular employment, and struggle to generate income. Then, travelling would be many times harder to find income.
So, what trick do you use to find work and income wherever you go? Or is the universe just bent on me being financially disconnected? Begging is just not in my psychological makeup — to do so feels to me like continually insulting yourself.
That was a beautiful article. I searched Google for “traveling without moving” and encountered it. It perfectly summarizes what I mean when I tell someone that I’m a traveler, even when I remain in one place.
I can send you a kindred spirit, I hope someday we meet. Thank you
I felt obligated to comment here. As another adventurer at heart, your words really spoke to me. I’m currently locked in the world of school and careers, but your writing instantly took me back to many times and places experienced on the road. I can’t wait to get back out there. I hope you continue to have such awesome experiences. Safe travels my ramblin’ friend.
Adventure comes in many forms, mine came in the form of the USMC. For 12 years I traveled the country and world meeting different people and also helping a few out. And yes, living with what you can carry in a duffle bag that long scarred me for life and my wife will attest to this. As older adults and nearing semi-retirement we both are eyeing the chance to hit the road with no agenda other than seeing as much of North America as possible. Though we both love to ride our bikes and hike, we need some motorized assistance and a place relax at the end of a hard day of hiking/riding. We know this will not be permanent and will eventually settle after our wanderlust has been satisfied. I am a recent subscriber and enjoy your stories and videos, stay safe and God Bless.